"Exactly. For all I know I did this because I like killing and want to be better."

I'd almost rather know. I'd rather be faced with that possibility instead of never knowing. I don't mention either that I don't know if I have a family back home. She doesn't need to hear that. It's doubtful, I wouldn't make a good... whatever I'm supposed to be if I had ties to back home. Still. I don't know.