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Maggie Donnelly ([personal profile] irishcoffee) wrote in [community profile] faelans_folly2013-08-23 04:17 pm

[closed - Jack and Maggie]

It wasn't every day that a new arrival came to the Folly genuinely happy to be there. I got a lot of shock, the occasional screamer, tears enough to make a waterfall off the highest peak, but never someone that just plopped into one of the barstools, and ordered coffee and a muffin.

I didn't get any real sense that he was happy about it for any nefarious reasons, but I knew I'd be sending my preternatural investigators around to introduce themselves just in case.

In the meantime, he was a really pleasant guy with a great laugh and a flirtatious nature that he bestowed on anyone that came in for coffee, male and female. He'd even asked me out once, but backed off graciously enough when I told him I was with someone (with the obligatory remarks about it 'always being the good ones' and my lack of outward symbols that I was off the market.)

From then on, I told him more about the Folly, he told me more about himself and we genuinely had a fun afternoon, laughing with each other.
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[personal profile] everywere 2013-08-23 08:41 pm (UTC)(link)
I've resumed my security guard job now, only adjusted the hours so that I'm not working when Maggie is off. I don't like that I can't see her all the time but I know it's healthy to take some time apart. The highlight of my days are when I come into the shop just as she's getting off and knowing I get to go home with her.

When I walk into the shop at the end of the day, Maggie is laughing merrily with some guy on the stool. I can immediately smell that he's attracted to her and the way he looks at her makes my hackles raise.

I normally just wait in the corner booth for her to get off but today I go up to the counter and sit right next to the guy, muscles tense as I resist the urge to rip his throat out.
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[personal profile] everywere 2013-08-23 09:28 pm (UTC)(link)
I try not to make my smile tight when I grin back at Maggie but all I can think about is the guy next to me. Rationally, I know people are attracted to Maggie. I shouldn't blame them, she's amazing. But I do. I can feel a possessiveness creep over me that's just disgusting but I can't stop it.

When Maggie walks away I see where the guy's eyes follow and when he comments I fight back a growl.

"Damn?"
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[personal profile] everywere 2013-08-23 09:45 pm (UTC)(link)
The fact that everything he's saying is the complete truth does nothing to supress my rage at the situation and his words. I can feel the teeth in my mouth shifting to the fangs of a wolf and I'm gripping the counter so hard that one of the tiles snaps loudly as it cracks.

When Maggie walks back in I glance at her with wild eyes before turning my attention back to the guy. I could rip out his throat so easily. Or snap his neck so there's no blood. I know how to get rid of the body so no one would find it. He just arrive so no one would even miss him...
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[personal profile] everywere 2013-08-23 10:13 pm (UTC)(link)
I watch her squeeze his hand and I feel so betrayed that it physically hurts. Part of my brain is telling me that it doesn't mean anything, that she's just being nice. Everything else though is screaming that someone is encrouching on the territory of my mate, stealing her away from me.

When the guy gets up from his stool I grab him by the shirt and slam him up against the wall.

"Don't. You. Thouch her," I growl, the words hard to form around the fangs in my mouth and the urge to tear into his neck is almost overwhelming.
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[personal profile] everywere 2013-08-23 10:30 pm (UTC)(link)
I gasp as the blast of cold air hits me and Maggie's voice cuts through my tension like a knife. I snap back to myself and realize what I'm doing. I can smell how scared Dylan is, that he's absolutely terrified.

I let him go, dropping him to his feet as I suddenly feel sick with shame. I thought I was better than this, that I had more control over my actions.

"I- I'm sorry," I say, stepping away from him. All the old self-hate and loathing hits me hard, something I thought I was done with.

"I'm so sorry," I tell him again before I rush out of the shop.
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[personal profile] everywere 2013-08-23 10:54 pm (UTC)(link)
I don't even know what I'm doing until I realize that I'm back at my old place as a wolf, hiding under the bed. Big bad soldier and were and I'm under the bed whimpering in shame at what I've done.

Every time. Every time I think I've gotten better something reminds me that I'm not really in control of myself. Or rather, I'm not strong enough to be in the sort of control I want to. One of these days I'm going to hurt someone and Maggie will have to turn me in. I don't want to do that to her but I don't know how to stop it.
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[personal profile] everywere 2013-08-23 11:02 pm (UTC)(link)
I whimper from under the bed, even more ashamed now that I've worried her so much. I can tell from both the weather outside and her smell that she's in a panic. I wonder if she thinks I've run off and killed someone. I don't think she'd think that of me, but I wouldn't blame her if she did.
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[personal profile] everywere 2013-08-23 11:10 pm (UTC)(link)
I don't meet her eyes, although I can tell how relieved she is to have found me. Part of me thinks it would have been better for her in the long run if she never did. If I just stayed here in my makeshift den I'd never upset, worry, or disappoint her again.

My only response is to let out a mournful howl.
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[personal profile] everywere 2013-08-23 11:26 pm (UTC)(link)
It feels good to have her pressed against me like this even though I know I don't deserve this level of comfort. I'm glad that she's not upset at me but I feel like she should be. I'm upset with myself.

"Almost killed him," I say, voice rough and growling coming through the muzzle of the wolf. "Would have. Lost control."
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[personal profile] everywere 2013-08-23 11:35 pm (UTC)(link)
I nod once, although I know I would have killed him or at least hurt him if Maggie hadn't stopped me. After all this time violence still comes so easy to me, it's almost always my first instinctual response to a problem.
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[personal profile] everywere 2013-08-24 12:35 am (UTC)(link)

I take a deep breath and force myself to shift back to human, jaw clenching down from the pain of it. It's over soon though and I shift so that I can look her in the eyes.

"The urge to kill comes so fast and easy though."

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[personal profile] everywere 2013-08-24 12:59 am (UTC)(link)

"Only because you stop me," I say, although I know that's only partially true. I hadn't killed the guy yet, even though I wanted to. I need to find a way to practice restraining myself though.

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[personal profile] everywere 2013-08-25 01:43 am (UTC)(link)

"And what, I make sure that I don't hurt them?" I ask with a snort. It's not really that bad of an idea. The part of me that's been trained to the point if brainwashing knows repetition of actual circumstances is the best way to prepare for something.

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[personal profile] everywere 2013-08-27 04:16 am (UTC)(link)

I'm not sure if I'm relieved or insulted that she doesn't think I could hurt whoever this person is. I know she doesn't mean it to be insulting but I know I'm supposed to be the scariest, deadliest thing out there.

"Well, it doesn't matter because the point is to keep control, right?"

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[personal profile] everywere 2013-08-28 02:32 pm (UTC)(link)

"You're not overstepping," I reassure her. The fact that she wants to help still amazes me. I don't know what she sees in me but I'm glad she sees it.

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[personal profile] everywere 2013-08-29 04:05 am (UTC)(link)

"Really?" I ask. I would think she'd be more worried about it or frustrated by it. Or, more likely, insulted because she can clearly take care of herself. She's gone most of her life taking care of herself just fine.

"Why?"

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[personal profile] everywere 2013-08-30 02:20 pm (UTC)(link)

"I don't understand it, but I'm glad you feel that way," I say with a chuckle before kissing her fingers. I didn't know she felt all that, but it doesn't sound like a bad feeling at all, so that's good. If it makes her feel good then I'm not going to worry too much about it because that's what I want for her, to be happy.

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[personal profile] everywere 2013-09-01 04:02 pm (UTC)(link)

"I do want you and need you," I say, which is a strange admission for me. I don't even know how I need her, not really, except that I do. I know that if she were gone that I would completely fall apart, despite the fact that I had lived for years without her.

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[personal profile] everywere 2013-09-03 03:33 am (UTC)(link)

I give a happy growl at the nuzzling and kiss, because I know she's doing it just for me, to make me happy and help me relax. I like it, it's a good feeling.

"Guess we should get out from under the bed."

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[personal profile] everywere 2013-09-04 04:53 am (UTC)(link)

"You say that because you're tiny," I grumble, although with the way she's kissing me I can't complain too much. That always makes things more pleasant.