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Now that I don't necessarily hate what I am I've been enjoying my differences a lot more. On days that I don't work I like spending time at the cafe with Maggie. A good part of the time I like doing that in my wolf form. While my mind is still my own there's something about being in canine form that makes it easier to focus on the here and now and take joy in the little things.

The customers, at least the regulars, have gotten used to me. They don't know I'm also Jack, Maggie's boyfriend, they just think I'm the friendly wolf-like dog that likes to play with them. I've even had a few kids ride me around the shop. It's hard to hate what you are when it makes little kids giggle. There's something about the freedom of being in my wolf form that makes it okay to be... playful.

Which is what I'm in the mood for right now, playful. That's why I'm here at the shop as a wolf, eagerly greeting costumers at the door or making a nuissance of myself with Maggie and the other employees by weaving myself around their legs. I could get used to being playful.

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irishcoffee

"Close," I answer, keeping his face in mine. "It would be more precise to say that I'm going to have our baby in 8 months."

From:

everywere

I opened my mouth to say something but no words came out. What could I say? I had no doubt that any baby she was carrying was mine, even if I knew she wouldn't cheat on me it would have essentially been impossible for her to do so without me finding out.

But I had so strongly assumed it wasn't possible for me that I don't know how to process this. I meant what I said, I would have liked to have children with her, just being confronted with that reality was something else.

"But how?"

From:

irishcoffee

I level an eyebrow at him. "You mean to tell me they didn't go over this in health class at some point in your school career?"

I can't help it. I want to laugh, cry, sing, everything. All at the same time.

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everywere

My eyes leave hers for a moment as I look outside to check the weather. Gorgeous weather, which means that she's happy, which is very good. I still don't know what to say, but I smile big at her and hug her close, blinking away tears.

"Didn't think it was possible."

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irishcoffee

"I didn't think it was either. Something my father said," I tell him, "magic he wrought. But when I went on my walk earlier, when I Looked to see and found the little life under my heart, I remembered what he said. He wasn't dooming me to childless life, he was making sure it wouldn't happen until...until I met you."

Damn it all, but my eyes were leaking again, running rivers down my cheeks.

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everywere

"We're going to have a baby," I say, not sure if I'm more delighted or terrified. The realization of what it means, of the responsibility of it all is more than a little bit terrifying. I'll be a terrible father. I will. I'm a mess of a person, how am I supposed to teach a tiny person to not be a mess.

"We're going to have a baby."

From:

irishcoffee

I nod, my eyes searching his face through the tears. I take his hand and lead it to the small of my stomach just under my belly button. "What are you thinking?" I ask softly.

From:

everywere

"I'm going to be a terrible father," I mutter, although I can't help but give a little laugh because despite that, I'm still happy about this, still excited.

"Good thing I know you'll be an amazing mother."

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irishcoffee

I smile because if there's one consistent thing, it's Jack's ability to think the worst of himself.

"On the contrary, I think you're going to be an amazing father. Which is good because I'll probably be terrible. The only mother figure I have to draw on is Levi's and she's a pit viper. Guess we'll just have to work it out together?"

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everywere

"You're always mothering everyone," I point out. I'm sure she'll do an even better job with our own child. Even just thinking about the concept of 'our own child' makes me a bit giddy.

From:

irishcoffee

"That's grown people," I say and then my eyes go huge. "Jack. I've never even held a child that small. What if I break it?"

From:

everywere

"Maybe that's why you had to wait for me?" I say, giving her a bit of a smile. "Have to wait until you could have a kid that would be durable enough."

From:

irishcoffee

"That might be part of the reason. I think the other part is that it had to be you because you're the other half of me," I say, completely serious.

From:

everywere

"I know," I say, kissing her forehead. Sometimes I can literally feel the connection between us. "You're all the best parts of me."

From:

irishcoffee

"And you're the best of me," I answer back and pull him closer. "I love you, Jack. With everything that I am."

From:

everywere

"I love you too," I say, pressing my forehead against hers. I don't ever want to let her go, I want to keep her close and safe. I want to keep her and out baby safe.

From:

irishcoffee

It's one of those times I just want to crawl onto him and stay there, like my body recognizes its other half and doesn't want even a breath of distance. I stretch myself and press my lips to his throat. "You're going to get even more protective now, aren't you?"

From:

everywere

"Mmmmhmmmmm," I growl, more content now than I think I've ever been. I will be even more protective now though, she's not wrong about that. I'll have to focus even more on keeping my temper in check.

From:

irishcoffee

I shiver because that sound, that low growl, is one of my favorite sounds in the world. "Oddly enough, I don't mind in the slightest."

From:

everywere

"You should go to a doctor soon," I say. I don't want to think about what could go wrong but I know this is important. I want her and the baby to be as healthy as possible.

"Just to make sure everything is... normal."

From:

irishcoffee

"I will," I smile and kiss him again, just under his ear, "and I'll have them do any test you think I'll need to set your mind at ease. But the elements don't lie. I felt the harmony when the elements confirmed he was there and growing."

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everywere

"Have them check to see if it's turning into a bear or anything in there. And you sound like a hippie when you talk like that."

Sometimes it's a little scary, how in tune she is with magic. Scary because I don't understand it at all, but I trust her.

"It's a boy then?"

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irishcoffee

I giggle. "I will. And the second I feel it rumble instead of kicking, we'll know if there's a wolf growling away in there. Hmm, who knows, maybe I'll have a litter of pups instead?"

I sniff. "I'm not sure what a hippie is, but from the way you say it, I'm not sure if I should be insulted or not." I'm teasing and I know he knows it. "Unless I'm off my mark, yes, Jack, you'll have a son by the solstice."

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everywere

"I hope he takes after his mother," I say, meaning it. I'm getting better about hating myself less (because how can I fully accept her love if I hate myself?) but I still think she's a better person than me.